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  Rating:
      Explicit
  Archive Warning:
      Underage
  Category:
      M/M
  Fandom:
      Big_Hero_6_(2014)
  Relationship:
      Hiro_Hamada/Tadashi_Hamada, Hidashi_-_Relationship, Hamadacest
  Additional Tags:
      Crossdressing_Kink
  Stats:
      Published: 2015-08-13 Updated: 2017-02-28 Chapters: 4/? Words: 6350
****** Shy Boy ******
by Brogane
Summary
     As Tadashi devotes his time in his project, Hiro has been feeling
     neglected and bored during the pass weeks. He soon discovers a tablet
     underneath Tadashi's bed where the eldest keeps his secret
     "interest". With this kind of information, Hiro starts to develop the
     same interest as his older brother and even wishes to take action
     upon it..
Notes
     A/N: Hello and thank you for reading my first fan fiction posted on
     this account! To make this short, this fan fiction was inspired by a
     doujin called "Shy Girl" by URAN. Of course, it's not an actual copy
     of the doujin but if you're curious about it you can go and check it
     out! (Warning: It contains brother/sister plus underage incest so if
     that's not your cup of tea then I advice you not to read it). I added
     my own interests as well, to make it more "free-form" or original. I
     already feel bad about basing this on another story but I've been
     craving to write my own Hidashi fan fiction so here's my attempt! I
     hope you enjoy it.
***** Discovery *****
I pick up my pencil and gently start scribbling a few words on my journal. It's
a Friday night and right now I'm trying to finish some homework that'll
probably be due in a few days. It's very unlikely of me to get things done
early but when you're alone with no personal interest on improving your own
fighting robots you gotta do what you gotta do to keep yourself from dying out
of boredom.
Not only am I busying myself with my homework, I can't take my eyes out of my
alarm clock as the seconds slowly ticks away. It's 8:37 and Tadashi said he'll
be home around 9:00 to watch a movie with me. A movie with your bro doesn't
sound much fun but it's honestly better than being alone in a quiet room with
no one to bug around.
After finishing the last problem, I close my journal shut and push it away,
relief that I was productive for tonight. I take out my cell as soon as it beep
a message from Tadashi. I unlock the screen, eager to read the words he'll be
on his way.
"Sorry lil bro but I can't make it tonight. Will be staying at the lab again. I
promise we'll make it up another time. Good night."
I lock my screen and carelessly throw my phone to the bed, along with myself. I
let the soft comforter suffocate me as I try to hold in my bad mood.
"It's not fair!" I scream against my covers as I start a mild tantrum.
I'm getting sick of Tadashi always bailing on me and pushing me away and
thinking it's okay to text me instead of calling me when he ditches on me!
After a few heated screams and breaths, I was able to calm down, now embarrass
with my small tantrum. I stand up, walking around my shared room and try to
think of a way to spend my free Friday night without Tadashi!
I stop at my desk, eyeing at my small metal friend. I gently grab him, lifting
him and inspecting his features.
I could always go bot fighting...
It has been awhile and having a rush of danger can sure lift my spirits!
However...
I sigh, putting the robot back in place and slump back into my bed.
"I just have no motivation..." I mumble to myself.
I close my eyes, letting the heavy feeling of helplessness overcome me. I
almost feel suffocated, as if boredom itself is pushing me against my mattress.
I twist and turn around my bed, trying to think of something, anything to do.
I turn my head and my sight lands on Tadashi's side of the room. The wooden
boards is slightly open, I'm able to see his bed.
I slowly raise my head. An idea begins to spark in me and I can feel myself
coming back to life. I can feel my lips turn up into a smirk and I let out a
mischievously chuckle as I make my way to Tadashi's side of the room.
I slowly push the walls apart, welcoming myself into Tadashi's personal space.
A hint of guilt comes to me but I quickly got rid of it when I remember how
Tadashi isn't around much to keep me company.
I immediately start looking for Baymax but I mentally slap myself. The big guy
isn't here. Because of him, Tadashi is staying overnight in the lab working on
extra features. Having my two favorite people away can sure feel lonely... I
quickly shake that thought away and start digging through Tadashi's stuff.
I'm not sure what I'm looking for or expecting but anything new is good, as
long as it keeps me entertained.
I make sure to carefully put things back where they were, making sure every
book and paper were in the same place as it was before. His bookcase has
nothing but old textbooks, reference books, and journals, filled with notes.
Inside his drawers are stationary and tools. Nothing seems to be interesting in
here...
I sigh, as I lazily scan through an old journal of his as I flop myself on his
bed, not bothering to hide my tracks anymore.
This whole expedition turns out to be a disappointing one. Nothing seems new or
different. It was...boring.
I groan and stretch my limbs across the bed, hating how I'm back to being
bored.
"Screw this, I'm going to sleep..." I huff out some air as I stand up to put
the journal away.
I don't realize how fast I move until I trip and catch myself on the desk,
knocking out a few pencils to the ground.
I curse myself, putting the journal away and kneel down to pick up the mess I
made. A few roll under his bed so I had to squeeze myself between the tight
spots to grab that one lousy pencil.
My fingers pass something smooth and cold and I let myself retrieve the object.
I take it out, placing the last pencil back in place and sit on Tadashi's bed
to examine the device.
"A tablet?"
I turn the tablet around, noticing it isn't like the ones the school provides
or gives out to their students. I have one and so does Tadashi. So why would he
need an extra one...
I immediately turn the device on, eager to find out what Tadashi has stored
inside.
A lock screen comes on and asks for a pin. I begin to plug in a few numbers:
his birthday, his lunch code, his favorite dish number at that one sushi place,
anything!
I immediately stop myself and remember it can notify Tadashi if someone is
trying to break in if he did had something to hide.
I pout a bit, tapping my fingers against the edges of the device until I
remember something that can help.
I quickly run to my desk, taking the tablet with me and turn on my desktop. I
remember I was working on a new hacking program a few weeks ago just for the
hell of it. However, I'm not sure if it's ready to do any actual hacking.
"I guess I did had something to work on..." I mumble to myself as I immediately
work on the program.
It's 11:27 when I finally completed the program. I smile to myself, satisfied
to feel accomplished once again.
I plug in Tadashi's tablet into my computer and cross my fingers as the program
do their work. I plug in a few codes and just in a few seconds, the tablet is
unlock.
"Yes!" I holler in victory, almost in tears as I raise the tablet up high.
I quickly begin to slide my fingers around the screen, searching every memory
of this device.
My first search begins in the Picture folder, which is empty. I then check the
Music folder which is also empty. I tap on the Video folder, hoping for
something, anything!
A list of videos begins show up and I tap the first one, curious to see what it
is.
The video was half played, so it's playing where it was last stop at.
"Please... just do it. Do it now, I can't take it anymore...Ahh!"
I can feel my face burn red and my fingers growing warm and sweaty.
A beautiful lady, wearing nothing but a black skirt, is looking at me with
heated, begging eyes. Her hair is long and black and it flair around her like a
mane. I can't stop looking at her as she stares at me, mouth slightly open with
drool sticking out.
I can feel my heart beat loud against my chest and as soon as the camera slowly
moves down, I gasp and I can feel my pants getting tighter.
A hand slowly lifts up her skirt, revealing her private part. I can't help but
avert my eyes away, feeling embarrass as I squirm around my seat. She suddenly
separates her legs, giving me a full view and I yelp with excitement.
"Please...just put it in. I can't take it anymore, I need you!"
I gulp as hear those begging words right out of her mouth.
I slowly run my fingers in front of my pants.
I can't believe I'm watching this.
Especially from Tadashi.
***** Rare Date *****
Chapter Notes
     A/N: Thank you for those who favorite/follow/like/comment or review
     my story! It means alot. One thing I like from y’all’ feedback is
     that both reviews/comments from ao3 and fanfiction.net mention
     something about the way I write. I’ll honestly say this, I was tired
     yet inspired to write this fanfic and I knew if I didn’t as soon as
     possible I was never gonna write it and publish it. I rush and I feel
     like I could have done better but what’s done is done. :’) Again,
     thanks for your comments, it means a lot and hopefull y’all will like
     this chapter as well!
“Hiro, are you alright? You’re dazing off quite a bit?”
I flinch a bit and quickly focus my eyes on my brother instead of the window.
“Y-Yea, sorry. I didn’t get much sleep last night.” I try so hard not blush on
my little white-lie just now. It definitely isn’t the lack of sleep that’s
keeping me thinking too much…
“Yea, I understand. The whole project with Baymax is keeping me up as well.”
Tadashi chuckles as he takes a sip of his coffee.
“But a promise is promise, it’s been so long since we hanged out together like
this.” Tadashi smiles apologetically.
I smile back as I take a sip of my own drink. Right now we’re having breakfast
together in our favorite café. Tadashi promised me last night that we can have
breakfast together and I was honestly thrilled. But now…I can’t really
concentrate around him, especially after what I discover and what I’ve been
doing with that discovery.
“It’s alright if you were too tired to come. I would have understand.” I assure
him.
He shakes his head no and looks at me with warm eyes. “I can’t do that.
Especially since I feel like I’ve been neglecting you for a while.”
No kidding.
“Plus, Honey Lemon would have given me a hard time about it. She’s been nagging
me about not spending time with you as much as I use to.”
“Ah I see.”
I begin to wonder about my brother again. What kind of girls does he like? Is
Honey Lemon his type? Is she the one that Tadashi thinks when he watches does
videos?
I can feel my face heat up when that statement came through me. I take another
sip of my chocolate milk to calm myself down.
That’s all I can think about ever since that night, the night when I found
Tadashi’s dirty collection. The type of girls were diverse but some of them
were similar to Honey’s features, even to Gogo’s features. Does Tadashi has a
thing for those two? Does he have a crush on them? Does Tadashi wantsto do
those things with them? Maybe…even at the same time???
“Hiro, are you alright?”
Before I can answer, I feel a hand gently placing itself on my forehead.
“You feel warm… Do you have a fever?”
I can’t help but blush more at Tadashi’s touch. I can’t help but think about my
brother’s taste in women and even about him doing thingswith his two female
friends right in front of him. What is wrong with me???
“Y-Yea, I’m fine. It’s just a bit hot in here.” I hide my uneasiness with a
chuckle.
“I’ll be right back” I said right before I quickly dash to the restroom.
I’m so relief that the restroom is empty as I race myself to the sink and
splash some cold water on my face.
“Calm down, Hiro. This isn’t like you, you’re not a pervert…” I assure myself
as I stare myself at the mirror.
“…And you specially don’t talk to your reflection like this.” I groan, feeling
a bit embarrass about my pathetic situation.
Ever since that night, I’ve been thinking weird and even doing weird things!
However, I don’t really regretabout the whole event. No matter how weird or
unusual this whole thing is, this is all about Tadashi. This is something about
him that I’m sure I was never supposed to learn about him. Maybe that’s why I’m
so intrigue about this, because I’m learning about something so vulgar about
him. I’m learning about a new side of my older brother, who’s been making me
feel lonely throughout these past few weeks. This whole situation makes me feel
a bit…closer to him. In a weird way…
I slap my cheeks and make sure I look decent and normal before I head out to
meet with my brother.
“Okay, no more thinking of perverted things. It’s time for some brother
bonding.” I mumble to myself as I walk to our table.
                                      ***
Right now we’re at an outside mall, mostly for Tadashi since he’s buying new
clothes and a few reference books for his project. I follow my brother behind
as I try to lick my melting ice cream off my hands.
“Sorry this isn’t really an ideal hangout. I feel like I’m dragging you around
on my errands.” Tadashi apologizes as he turns around, taking a bite from his
own cone. Seriously, how can someone just biteon their ice cream?
“I don’t mind” I shrug, honestly appreciating our time together. It’s better
than being stuck in home bored and lonely.
Tadashi smiles and continues walking as I try to catch up to walk beside him.
“So what you been doing while I was gone during these past weeks?” He asks,
obviously trying to make some conversation.
“Ya know. Going to classes, doing homework, helping Aunt Cass around the café.”
I mumble a bit, slightly blushing from not mention the other things I’ve been
doing.
“Masturbating to your porn collection that you hide under your bed.”
“That’s good to hear. I can count on my bro to be a responsible lil man.”
I scoff at him, slightly pouting at him. “I’m not a kid anymore. I’m going to
be 15 in a few months.”
Tadashi chuckles, nodding. “Ah, you’re right. I can’t believe you’re growing up
so fast. If you need any help on anything, just let me know.” Tadashi nudges at
me, laughing a bit.
“Help on what?” I raise an eyebrow, getting a bit fluster from his little
offer.
“You know. Guy problems. Teenage boy things. Awkward things that boys in your
age goes through.”
Why am I having that same awkward feeling when Baymax mentioned about puberty?!
“Okay, I don’t need to speak about this right now. Not ever in a million years
with you.” I disapprovingly swing my arms apart.
Tadashi chuckles once more. Why do my cheeks burn when he laughs all the
time???
“Just saying, little brother. As the oldest, it’s my responsibility to guide
you through your awkward teenage phase.” Tadashi fists his hand passionately.
“Yeah yeah, can we stop talking about this now?” I mumble, drifting my view
somewhere else to change my train of thoughts. I wonder if I would feel awkward
about this if it wasn’t for this awkward situation I was in.
We keep walking around silently, crowd of people passing by us as they hurried
to their shopping.
I look around, getting a bit tired of window shopping until I come across a
certain window display.
The window display has two mannequins that wore frilly women clothes. One had a
cream-color dress, frills at the bottom and on the end of the long-sleeves. The
skirt of the dress has ruffles and two white ribbons on the side that matches
the bigger on that’s on the middle of the collar of the dress. The other
mannequin wears a black blouse, frills at the end of the sleeve and a black
skirt that matches it.
Something about these clothes seem familiar to me…
“Do you want to go inside?” Tadashi asks behind me.
I almost yelp from suddenly hearing his voice. “Isn’t this a boutique though?
For girls?” I narrow my eyes at him, not sure if he’s playing around with me.
“They have some clothes for boys as well. I come here some times. Come.”
Tadashi motions to follow him as he walks in. I quickly follow him back,
interested on what he just said. “You came here before?” I curiously ask. He
nods his head as he makes his way through the small store, possibly where the
boys clothes were.
“Yea, I sometimes accompany Honey here when she goes shopping.”
“Oh, I see.”
My thoughts from this morning comes back to me. Does Tadashi has a thing for
Honey? The reason why I was so familiar with the clothes from the display was
because the girls from Tadashi’s videos mostly wore them. Does Tadashi likes
girls in these kind of clothing?
I stop on my thoughts and track and look at the closest outfit to me. A light
blue dress with white peter-pan collar and a dark blue ribbon around the waist
is the closest to me. I grab the fabric, examining it and feeling how soft it
is on my fingers.
“Do you like the dress?”
I immediately snap my hand behind my back when a lady, possibly around her
early twenties, smiles at me. She has long black hair that’s in twin tails and
wears a short, frilly white dress with a white sweater and white flats. I
figure she works here when I spot a name tag on her.
“It’ll definitely look cute on you” she continues as she takes the dress from
the rack and place it in front of me.
“N-No, wait! I’m not-“
“Oh, I think we need a bigger size for you, I think a medium will fit you
better.”
“A m-medium???’ I stutter. I’m not sure what makes me more uneasy: the fact
that she thinks I’m interested in buying a dress or that a medium size for
ladies clothes can possibly fit me.
“Did you found something that you like?” Tadashi asks as he walks from behind
me.” I almost jolt from where I’m standing. Seriously, he needs to stop
sneaking on me like that!
The lady seem to get excited when she sees Tadashi besides me. “Oh, is this
your boyfriend?”
I immediately gawk at the employee and I can feel my face growing red with
embarrassment.
Tadashi tilts his head in confusion and looks at her and then me.
“What?”
“She was looking at this dress and I think it would be nice if she try it on
for you.”
“She?”
“S-She?!”
Tadashi looks back and forth between us until he realizes what’s going on.
“Oh!” He chuckles. “This isn’t my girlfriend, he’s my brother” He corrects her
as he place his hand on my shoulder.
The employee’s face quickly changes into many shade of pink before she turns
bright red.
“I-I’m so sorry, I d-didn’t know he was your b-brother!” she apologizes,
quickly bowing her head down.
Tadashi takes the dress from her which causes her to blush even more. He place
the light blue dress in front of me like she did before and I raise my eyebrow
at him.
“It does look cute on you.”
It’s my turn for my face to go red once again. “W-What are you saying?!?!”
The lady claps her hand together. “Oh, so your brother cross dresses?”
I’m about to lose it when that statement came out of her mouth.
Tadashi laughs and shakes his head when he puts the dress back to its rack. “No
but I can’t deny that it’ll look cute on him.”
The employee giggles and looks up at Tadashi. “I know right! That was my first
thought when I was first saw him.”
Getting fed up with this absurd situation, I walk myself out of the boutique,
face still red as a tomato.
Tadashi soon follows back, catching up with me. “Hiro wait! I’m sorry, we were
just having a little fun.”
I snap my head at him, glaring at him with heated eyes. “By we, do you mean you
and her??? I can’t believe you use me like that to flirt with that girl! What,
are you into girls with frilly clothes or something???”
Tadashi raises his eyebrow with a puzzle expression. “What? What are you
talking about?”
I turn my head away, shaking my head furiously as I continue to walk away.
“Never mind! Just forget about it.”
A hand gently hold my shoulder, stopping me on my tracks.
“Hiro, I’m sorry I didn’t mean to hurt you.”
Tadashi turns me around to see my pouty face, eyes almost teary.
“More like offend me” I murmur, not making eye contact with him.
Two arms embrace me, my face meeting Tadashi’s warm chest. “I’m sorry, I’m
sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you like that in public. Will you forgive me?”
I lean in my head a bit so my forehead will rest on his chest. “Whatever, let’s
just go home, I’m tired.”
His hands ruffles my hair and I step back to start walking.
“I’ll buy you the mega bucket fill with gummy bears at the candy store on our
way.”
“Make that two mega buckets!”
                                      ***
I pick another gummy bear from the bucket and flick it into my mouth as I turn
a page of Tadashi’s new reference book. Right now I’m lying down on my bed,
reading Tadashi’s book as he takes a shower. For the first time in a while,
he’s going to sleep here for tonight. Throughout the weeks he was mostly
sleeping on his lab or over at a friend’s house since it’s closer to the
school. Sometimes it feels like he doesn’t even live here anymore.
Tadashi steps in, fully clothes on his night-wear with a towel on his head.
“Don’t eat too much candy or your stomach is going to hurt.” Tadashi lectures
me as he closes the led.
“What’s the point of you buying this if I can’t eat it?” I question.
“You don’t need to eat the whole thing in one night you knucklehead.” Tadashi
comments as he prepares his bed.
I mock him a bit before putting his book on my desk, also getting ready to
sleep.
“It’s been awhile since I slept here.” Tadashi said.
“Yea, it sure has.” I comment back.
He turns off the lights once I’m tuck in. “Night Hiro”
“Night”
For some odd reason I can’t stand Tadashi being here. Maybe because it prevents
me to do that thing I’ve been doing or because it seems odd to know he’s
sleeping under his deepest secrets. Or maybe because I can’t stop thinking
about inappropriate things about my brother’s possible taste in women. I close
my eyes, trying to clear my head off from all this nonsense.
“Don’t think too much, you can’t masturbate now.”
***** Wasabi *****
Chapter Notes
See the end of the chapter for notes
It's been a week since Tadashi and I hung out together that weekend. He only
stayed at home during those two days and went back to his lab to work on his
robotic friend. Half of me was disappointed that he went back, leaving both
Aunt Cass and me alone. I can feel myself developing an abandonment complex but
I don’t want to look too deep into it. But the other half was relief that he
left, so I can be alone with his dirty videos. I’m such a bad brother… Not only
did I wanted him gone, but I was also invading his privacy, his personal space.
We have a silent agreement to respect each other’s privacy and space in our
room yet I’m breaking that behind his back.
I sigh as I scribbled a few words on my paper, not paying attention to the
lecture. Anyways, it’s pointless to take notes for a class that’s not even part
of my major.
“Pssst, are you alright, Hiro?”
I feel a gentle tap on my arm and I look up to see a concerned Wasabi. I give
him a genuine smile, giving him a thumbs up. He returns the gesture and resumes
taking notes. I’m starting to appreciate Wasabi more. We’ve been hanging out
more often than usual lately. He and Honey Lemon are the only ones that know
about how lonely I feel because of Tadashi. Wasabi focuses more on checking up
on me and asks if I needed anything while Honey works on reminding Tadashi
about seeing me once in a while. I’m happy she’s not being a big pushover about
it. It’ll be embarrassing for me if Tadashi ends up knowing how I feel about
his absence. I’m almost 15, I shouldn’t act like a brat and always needing
attention from my big brother. Unfortunately, that’s how I am and I get so
grouchy if Tadashi doesn’t give me his attention. How pathetic.
The professor dismisses his class and reminds everyone about the upcoming test.
I pack my belongings and I feel another gentle tap on my shoulder.
“Want to get lunch together? GoGo will also join in.” Wasabi invites me with a
smile.
I excitingly nod as I swing my backpack onto my shoulder.  “Sounds great!”
***
Wasabi informs me he’s trying to get a pet of his own. He’s choosing between a
turtle or a Sphynx cat. He wants a companion without the shedding or the fur.
His first thought was a lizard until he found out he had to feed them insects.
I chuckle as he makes a disgusted face.
We’re on our way to a burger joint where GoGo will meet us. It’s only three
blocks away from school. I’m so happy I wasn’t going back home by myself.
Wasabi’s phone alerts him with a beep. He reaches into his pocket and slides
his finger across the screen. He lets a sigh and gives me an apologetic smile.
“GoGo won’t be able to make it. Do you still want to go?” he asks.
“I don’t mind just the two of us,” I reply quickly. I can’t let myself be
alone!
His smile brightens and places his phone back into his pocket. “Great! I’m
starving.”
***
We picked a booth and we sat across from each other. We placed our order: mine
is a classic cheeseburger with a strawberry milkshake and Wasabi’s was an
avocado crunch with onion rings.
We had a comfortable silence between us until Wasabi started talking.
“So how are you holding up?”
The question is expected as always but it made me slightly anxious. Ever since
Wasabi invited me for lunch, I’m not sure if I should mention about what I
learned about Tadashi. But maybe I can get some answers from him.
“I’m alright. Just been bored.” I shrug. It went back being quiet till I look
up to Wasabi. “Do you know how long it’ll take?”
I can see Wasabi trying to be gentle and sincere with me about Tadashi, afraid
that anything he’ll say might hurt me.
“The project is expected to take the whole year but the professor expects his
students to at least work on it for a semester, while the other semester is for
the paper. I don’t see why Tadashi is working so hard on it, going as far as
living in the lab but I respect his decision and dedication.” He twirls a straw
between his finger and meets my eyes with his. “I heard he wished that you
would visit him and see him occasionally at the lab.” He hesitates.
His face reads concern, probably because of mine. I’m in disbelief.
“How come you don’t visit him? Maybe even stay with him a few nights with him.”
Wasabi reassures. Calmly, I lean back against the cushion, looking down on the
table. “I can’t stay long in the lab; Aunt Cass needs me at the café. Also, I
feel like I’ll bother him.” Wasabi nods, not asking more about the subject
anymore.
I use to visit Tadashi, that was the FIRST thing I did when he started his
project. However, instead of us bonding over science, Tadashi won’t look or
talk to me directly. He mumbled his responses or not answer at all when I ask
him questions. When I tried to help, he quickly stopped me and reassured me he
had things under control. All I could do was look at his work until he kicks me
out of the lab. I felt like a nuisance and I felt terrible when Tadashi ignored
me, my existence! I rather him doing it indirectly THAN directly. It’s less
painful.
I look up to see Wasabi scrolling around his phone, possibly feeling awkward
from my weird change of mood. I decide to make things interesting and even
tease Wasabi a bit.
“Can I ask you a question? It’s about Tadashi.” I stand up, leaning forward
Wasabi immediately focuses his view on me from his phone. His eyes gleam with
hope, more than happy for the change of mood. “What’s up?”
I can’t help but smile at Wasabi. I really hope he can give me anything juicy
about this subject. If I can’t learn about Tadashi from himself, I’ll use his
friends to get every detail and information I can.
“Tell me, what kind of girls does my brother like?”
Chapter End Notes
     I know it's short and I know it's been about a year but almost every
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***** More Questions than Answers *****
Chapter Notes
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With every inch of my body, I remain calm and collected as I enjoy watching
Wasabi’s flustered face. It’ll be hard not to bully or tease the guy,
especially since he’s this expressive. No one will expect this from Wasabi,
people will assume he’s the calm, collected, and daring guy. In reality, he’s a
cuddly bear that is not too excited for any trouble.
Wasabi blinks a few times, wondering where the question come from.
“How come you want to know?” he asks, taking a few sips of his water.
“Oh, so you do know something about that matter.” I smile. Learning anything
new about Tadashi has become a weird hobby of mine. Maybe I should tone it down
a bit? But how can I when the answer to the question I‘ve been asking myself
these couple of weeks is right in front of me!
Wasabi rubs his neck and averts his eyes around as if he’s putting his life in
danger if he spilled anything about the subject.
“Again, why do you want to know? Isn’t that something you should ask him and
not me?”
Before I can reply, the waitress comes with our lunches. Wasabi visibly sighs
in relief. I’m not sure if it was because of the hunger or the conversation.
Once she left, I quickly bring my subject back into action.
“If I can’t have a decent conversation with him, what makes you think he will
respond to the question? C’mon, help a brother out, why don’t ya?” I plead,
dramatically clasping my hands together and give him my best puppy-dog eyes.
Wasabi slightly wince, I can see him struggling, whether he shall spill the
beans or keep himself from gossiping about his friend behind his back. In
defeat, he sighs and takes an onion ring.
“Promise you won’t tell?”
“I promise!”
Victory!!!
He takes a bite from the fried vegetable and composes himself. “Tadashi isn’t
really the type to be chasing after girls” He starts. “but when we were
younger, probably around middle school, he had a huge crush on Gogo.
I can feel my jaw drop from the sudden reveal. Tadashi and Gogo?? Did he tell
her, did she knew? Did they go out? Did they…do things together?
My face immediately flushes when I imagine younger Tadashi and Gogo skipping
class just to meet somewhere to kiss. Or maybe-
“He never told her until late high school, as something to joke about. And Gogo
said she never noticed. And I believe her, Tadashi hid his feelings pretty
well. And he didn’t seem interested in going out with her either, he just
couldn’t stop talking to me about her.” Wasabi chuckles.
I chuckle as well, hiding my sigh of relief. For some reason, it would have
disturbed me if those two were an item. If those two were-
I stop myself from thinking too much. It seriously became a nasty habit of me
thinking about Tadashi’s personal love life. I don’t understand why it would
disturb me so much, to the point where it’ll make me feel nauseous.
“Does he still have feelings towards her?” I ask naturally, surprising myself
that I didn’t sound too anxious about the answer.
“Nope.” Wasabi answers back after chewing his burger.
Another sense of relief.
“Later during high school, I think freshman year, he had a thing for Honey
Lemon.
What.
“And so did she.”
What?!
“But they were never an item, I think Tadashi was worried about possibly
ruining their friendship so he never made a move on her. I don’t know about
Honey but I’m sure she thought the same way.”
I can feel my stomach doing summersaults at every word in those sentences. It’s
getting hard keeping my calm and collected posture.
I let out a laugh, surprising myself, and take a sip of my milkshake. “I can’t
believe my bro had a thing for those two.”  I chuckle, shaking my head. So it’s
true, there’s no doubt that maybeTadashi thought about those two as he watched
those videos. I can feel the milk not settling well in my stomach.
Wasabi chuckles, covering his mouth. “I told you he wasn’t the type to be
chasing after girls himself. It made sense that he ended up being interested in
the girls that were already close to him. Besides, it’s common to crush over
friends, I bet everyone in our group crushed over each other but in the end,
we’re best off as friends.”
I can hear the gratitude in his voice, as if he’s thankful that everyone can
still be together peacefully, no possible breakups or fights endangering their
circle.
I smile back, somehow sharing that same gratitude with him but for a different,
and maybe selfish, reason.
                                     ~OoO~
After finishing our lunch, we decided to study as well for the Bio test.
Because of my question, Wasabi started sharing stories about him and his
friends when they were younger. He commented how he felt bad bringing the
stories up in front of Fred, since he joined the circle in the beginning of
freshman year. I can see that but knowing Fred, he will just be excited and
happy to hear those stories.
Right now, I’m walking my way to the outdoor mall, heading towards the
bookstore. I invited Wasabi but he needed to head back to work on his own
project. I swear, I need to make hell to whatever professor assigned that
project.
I occupy my head with what I learn about Tadashi today. I wanted to ask if
Tadashi still had feelings for Honey but at that moment it felt too much. Now
I’m drowning with regret not asking Wasabi that, it wouldn’t have been too
weird or suspicious.
Suspicious.
Why suspicious? What am I making this a big deal? Every kid on this planet has
been curious about their sibling’s past interests or relationships at some
point. Their reason: blackmail material or just something to tease them about.
But none of those were myreasons, mine is different. I wanted to know so I can
figure out what’s going on in Tadashi’s head as he watched those videos. I
wanted to know who he fantasized about when he watched those pornographic
videos.
I stop at my track, causing a man to bump against me and send me a quick glare
before continuing his walk.
Is that really it? Am I really intrigued about Tadashi’s thoughts as he jerked
off? But why?! Why am I so curious, so infatuated about what he thinks?!
I touch my cheek, it’s warm and soft. I don’t like how warm it is.
I’m so weird, I’m so gross, what’s wrong with me???
I can feel a tear sliding down my cheek, meeting my fingertips. I quickly rub
them away and went inside the nearest store. I need to relax, regain myself.
I’m completely losing it!
“Hello! Welcome back!”
I look up to see a familiar girl with twin tails. I look around my area and I
see that I went inside the boutique from last time. I never thought I’ll see
her again, especially how she embarrassed me in front of Tadashi. I take a
quick look at her and this time she’s wearing a black frilled skirt with a
white, sleeveless blouse that hugged her pudge and chest nicely.
I give her a small, hesitant smile.
“Hey…”
She gleams up and steps closer. “How can I help you? Are you looking for
anything specific?”
I rapidly shake my head. What to do, it’ll be weird if I just walk out!!! And I
don’t want her to think that I’m here to buy a dress like she assumed last
time.
“Urm… I mean, can you show me where the guys clothes are? I never got the
chance to see it…”
She nods happily and leads me to the section, informing me about their deals
and sales they’re having. The section is all the way in the back and for some
reason, it kinda annoyed me how small it was.
“If you need anything, please don’t hesitate to ask!” she smiles brightly. I
know she means well and she’s no jerk, but her bright, cheery attitude is
annoying me so much. It’s like I’m staring right at the Sun and the Sun happens
to be the sweetest being alive.
“Thank you.” I nod, already pretending to be interested in the clothes in front
of me.
“I’m sorry about last time...”
I turn my head to look at her but she’s already walking her way to another
customer. I guess that event was embarrassing for her as it was for me.
I went back staring at the clothes, trying to remember why I was here in the
first place.
“Why am I being so stupid.” I mumble to myself, picking up a baby blue sweater.
Am I really that dependent of Tadashi? Does it really take him to ignore me
just a bit for me to self-destruct?
I inspect the sweater a bit, enjoying the soft fabric.
I really miss Tadashi…
I take the sweater to the check-out, pay it and wave at the girl goodbye as I
leave the store.
I want him with me, right now.
Chapter End Notes
     Soo..i don't know if it's cannon that the group started out as
     college buddies or not... But for the sake of this fanfic, Tadashi,
     Wasabi, Gogo, and Honey are childhood friends. Possibly befriended
     Tadashi after his parents pass away. And Fred just ended up joining
     the group in college. But because he's such a sweet guy, he was able
     to get close to them as he was there with them from the start. Also,
     I noticed that my la[top autocorrected Gogo to "GoGo" on the last
     chapter. Sorry about that, lol. Anyways, thanks for reading and
     thanks for everyone who review/comment/follow/bookmark this fanfic!
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